Social

I debated reaching out
But what could I say
That would leave you with doubts
About
How you played it all wrong
I still remember your place
You occupy my thoughts
And I have to correct Auto
When he gets too real
And still tries to insert your name
It always felt like a game
That cut me in miles not inches
Inches not yards
Despite what you may think
It was me who let you go too hard
And you took the best of me
To the point where I could barely breathe
I’m just a fool that must cope
With feeling like I was rendered your joke
I will still hold
I will try to be strong
I will try to evolve
I wish I was wrong
But all my best lines become stock
All my best quips are for naught
Your pull was always so strong
We had to unfollow one another
So that we could try to carry on
It is what it is
Maybe I’m alone with this doubt
I’m surprised that we couldn’t figure it out
Form a simple understanding
That I am quicksand
And you are slow poison
The aims are the same
To lay
Curses
No one is allowed to figure me out like you did
And that’s my mistake
I was lock-step
Someone who understood
Who saw the truths that you wanted to keep hidden
So it’s best that we maintain our distance
But if they ask me if I have regrets
I can add you to the list
Because I grew to care in the purest of ways
So much so that I had to let you go
And dredge on
Until I got to a place where it wouldn’t kill me to say
That you meant more
Than any lame sentence
Sound
Song
Or Score
I never kept track
But I’m comfortable now
Waiving the white flag
Laying down my arms
They never would have changed a thing

I’m ashamed that you can’t be around
But this is a game of feats
I hope you’ll always be able to take solace in the fact
That you’re now one of the ones
That is in every word and every note
And I had to learn to adjust
to withholding sending every text
That seems to be meant for the both of us
You burrowed your way
Into my subconscious
And I feel like I can’t pull the plug

It’s funny when the roles reverse
When I know that you’re being social
And I’m now recluse
I get to hang around alone all day
Missing you